Cervix Update - Monday

Got it checked today after 2 days of being allowed to put pressure on it. It doesn't like pressure on it apparently and has gotten shorter again - .9. So....... I'm back on bedrest. I'm just so freakin frustrated at this point! I'm going from crying to being mad to being upset. I just wish I could do something! Like stretch it myself or something. All I can do is just sit here or lay here and hope that it decides on its own that its going to keep my baby in. I'm 23 weeks today so if it doesn't hold her and I go into pre-term labor, they would have to transport her to Riley to be saved. And even then, her chances would be not as good. It's just so frustrating. And the worst part is if you look at her during the ultrasound, she is totally fine. She's beautiful and growing and perfect. And if my cervix would just cooperate, she could come out a healthy, normal sized baby. She's even kicking me and moving right now. I can feel her. It's just upsetting.